I am struggling today with deep sadness. I'm currently streaming your videos on YouTube, and I was hoping I could see if you had your merch still. I can't afford it, but I wanted to see if I caught the flesh colored Ian shirt, but I'm not seeing it. I hope to someday purchase a peice of internet gold that is Moose tof the Brutal. Thank you for helping me not feel so lonely and distracting my gloomy mind. Thank you for being your authentic self, and encouraging others to do so as well. You rock Ian. And this site is html gold, right outta the mid 2000s. I think I had a gaiaonline account with this background 😆