brutalBlog #3 – It’s the Third One.

Whoops I disappeared again! Here’s some updates!
I’m going to try and blog a bit more often on here, I like it better than doing the Twitter.

Video Update

In my last blog I mentioned that I’m working on a really Big Video, and that has not changed. Since that blog I’ve been working on it almost nonstop, though I’ve had to slow down the past few days because apparently if you get sick and don’t rest, illnesses can actually end up getting worse? Ridiculous. But having to take a little break to recover has also made me realize that it’s possible that the Big Video won’t be done in time to be released this month.

Once I’m back on my feet the plan is to produce a regular-length video as a kind of in-between. I’ve got a very fun topic picked out, I just need to feel a bit better before I start filming. Being sick hasn’t been fun, but I’ve been enjoying the mental break from the Big Video. It’s been a lot of focusing on one very specific topic, and it can get a little exhausting despite how fun it’s been.

I’m really hoping it ends up being worth the wait! This is the first time I’ve really taken a chance with investing so much time into one video, and I don’t have any clue how it’ll go over. Hopefully I can have a different video out some time next week, though, that’d be ideal. I know I haven’t been putting videos out as often as I used to, like back in the retro game review days, but I’m actually really happy with the quality of my content recently. Excited to be taking more chances, and I’m also really eager to get back to Mystery Tapes and some other fun formats.

$20 Patreon Pledgers – Don’t fret! If you donated for a Special Thanks Credit during months where I don’t upload, your name will still show up in the credits of my upcoming videos! If I don’t upload I just roll the credits over onto the next active month. Nobody has messaged me about this being an issue, but I just wanted to clear it up just in case!

Stream Update

Will I ever finish Shenmue III? Yes. Yes I will.

The number one reason I haven’t streamed recently is because of how focused I’ve been on this Big Video that I’m starting to get really frustrated with not being able to name. I love keeping things surprises, but also I love spilling the beans. It’s a rough life.

Anyway, I’ve just been working away at this video and haven’t had the time to stream. Once I get this smaller video done I’ll get back online!

Schmlocial Schmedia

Man I have been pulling away from Twitter and it’s been… weird. Good, but weird. I don’t think I’ve distanced myself from the internet like this in quite some time, and it’s been mostly refreshing but a little lonely. I miss connecting with the people of the net as much as I used to, but I’ve definitely realized how much time has been wasted scrolling through feeds and worrying about comments when I could have been working on something of value. Taking a break has also made it easier for me to take my time on this Big Video, and to not stress out so much about having no new videos for a little while. I don’t feel pressured to upload a smaller video as an in-between, I actually want to do it for fun, which is a good feeling!

I’m not in a rush to get back to being active on Twitter aside from video/stream announcements, so if I’m quiet over there don’t worry – I’m probably not dead. I want to barf my thoughts up on this website more often, even if it’s just random rambles or side project updates. I’ve been learning how to do 3D modelling in Blender, lately, maybe I can show off some of that some time.

The End of the Post

I feel like I should have more to say since I’ve been quiet for about a month now, but I’ve seriously just been working on The Big Video and getting sick. I’ve pretty much only left the house to take out the trash since the quarantine started, so… it’s just been me and Adobe Premiere, basically. And MJ, she’s good too. I’ll try to include a picture of her next time.

If you have anything you’d like me to write about, let me know! I should also find a way for people to submit questions on here so I can do some Q&A like I did on Tumblr, or maybe just get some good blogging topics or something.

Anyway, thanks for reading! Hope to have something new for you soon.

– ian

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Thanks for the update Ian! I knew you were making a very long video, so I completely understand. I’m sorry to hear you got sick though. I hope you get better soon. I’m very excited for your upcoming videos and it’ll be great to see you on Twitch again. Sometimes taking a social media break is needed, so I’m glad you’re taking advantage of that. I definitely like updates more on this site than on Twitter, but that’s just me. Take care of yourself and say hi to MJ for me!

Sean Stevens

Take your time, Ian. I’m positive it will be worth the wait!


Looking forward to it! Take your time Ian make sure you feel better before you jump back in. Much love for you and MJ ❤


It’s good to hear from you Ian! I hope you feel better soon and are safe. I’m very excited to see what you’re working and I’m sure it will be worth the wait! I really enjoy the videos you’ve put out lately like the VHS tapes and the out in the wild videos and watching your channel evolve and grow is really awesome and inspiring. Take your time in recovering and I hope the best for you. PS give MJ some pets for me!


Good to hear from you Ian! Can’t wait to see what you’ve been working on, but take your time!


Hey Ian, glad to hear from you. It is surprisingly fresh to visit someones homepage for updates on stuff. I can not remember the last time I did this. I wish more creators would do the same. Personally I stopped using Twitter at the point in time the plague was hitting my country. I realized that the constant (negative and instant) consumption of news and scrolling did not benefit my well being and mental health. So I sympathize with you on that point. I am really excited for the big upcoming video. I am sure it will be great. During… Read more »

jess g

I wayyyy prefer this site to twitter, I’m glad you set it up. I’ve been avoiding twitter also – every time I go on I end up getting stressed out. But I’ve been worried about missing updates from creators I follow, so it’s nice to be able to check this site instead of twitter. I just got my wisdom teeth out and was able to take a few days off from work, which has been a great little vacation. I rewatched all of your mystery vhs videos today and I’m definitely hoping they’ll be a recurring series, I love that… Read more »


This just put a huge smile on my face. I’m so excited to see the Big Video! (but also totally ok with waiting.) Glad you’re feeling more comfortable taking risks and getting yourself out of the social media suck. Take care of yourself iAN!


Awesome to hear from you, but sorry to hear you’ve been sick 😦 Hope all gets better soon! My gf and I love watching your vids and we can’t wait for BIG VIDEO. But, we value your health more., obviously Worth the wait. Take your time.


My gf and I watch your videos all the time especially the food ones that’s my favorite series you’ve done. Pumped to see what the new one is


I’m sorry to hear that you’ve been sick! I hope that you feel better, or are feeling better now, since I’m a bit late to this post. Looking forward to the Big Video and new streams when you have the time and are feeling up to it! Also hope everything worked out with the copyright strike on the Lula 3D video!


wow i am so excited for this big video and am also super excited to watch your new vid today! i am waiting for my bf to get off work so we can watch it together.
i’m so sorry you got sick and hope you get to feeling better soon <3


Most importantly, I hope you feel better soon! Working while sick is absolutely never fun and none of us would ever want you to put production before your own health. Your Next upload today was super funny and honestly really, really high quality. My bf and I have always been fans of your content. I’m glad to hear you’re working on stuff that you’re passionate about! We’re super pumped for Big Video and future streams.
Stay healthy, stay safe, and I hope you’ve had a wonderful birthday 🎂

Wyatt B.

Ian i’ve loved your content since the day I found hiddenblock. Absolutely loved every second of watching you, and you’re genuine humor and personality. My favorite video of yours is the Kid Cuisine one, as just the genuine feelings coming from it are so funny and my friends and I quote it daily. The saddest part of it being my favorite video is that you seem concerned and pressured to upload a video, and that you genuinely seem to think that video will not really be good. I just wanted to tell you that it was so funny and fantastic.… Read more »

Sarah Jay


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